On tuesday Night, i went out. I invited myself to a college party to meet up with some old friends from highschool. Was nice, had fun.
I know i wasnet supposed to drink, but i did. Still understood what was going on, wasent that bad.
I got a question though. I got rejected or ignored by ALOT of girls that night, not an issue though, wasent at my best. There was this really interesting girl though (shes hot and studies physics, and is a breakdancer as a hobby). I was talking to her though, was a friendly talk though. Apprently she was interested in me last time i was there (My first FR on this blog), but then she got scared. So I wanted to know why, maybe i could learn somthing.
She was being all playfull, so i decided to play a game, if i win, shed tell. I dont know what she would get if i won, dont care either. It was this mind game, where i could read it. Its a simple trick, ive amazazed some friends before with it before (link: http://home.att.net/~numericana/answer/magic.htm#denmark).
I tired it on her, got some deep eye contact, she didnt look away, i didnt either. SHe seemed really interested, there was this annoying guy , who kept cracking jokes inbetween breaking the concentration. I got her focus agian and again. She kept asking stupid questions, (i think they were shit tests, i did what i read to do...ignore them, or have instant witty reactions). But it just kept going on and on, for like 5 mins straight.
I thought i was holding up pretty good, buit that fucker guy kept on going aswell. She was interested, she didnt make excusses to leave, she came closer to me (for some type of protection) when some guy who hit on her earlier passed by, she said "omg, that guy scares me, i hope he doesent come...blah blah blah".
Anyways, we went on with the game, fucker next to her kept cracking jokes , annoying piece of shit. I joked back at times, and was erious at others. The game finished, another guy next to me knew the game and shouted out "There are no grey elehpants in denmark".
SO she didnt want to tell what her reason was becuase i apprently didnt read her mind. Everything seemed on, eye contact was long and deep, body language was good. I was agianst a wall, leaning back, like three people were interested in me (and sometimes the guy who kept craking dumbass jokes. SHe didnt leave.
I went for all , got out my phone while she was shit testing or whatver (it wasent ending), so i took out my phone, and handed it to her, and siad, whats ur number.....
SHe didnt take the phone. I tired to be directive...failed. The guy cracking jokes (i befriended him sometime before), then asked , "can i have your number?", just to annoy me. And the shithead got it.
She did say "yeah, were friends". I remembered the word "friend" really well, thinking she wasent really into him as boyfirend material. So i was like," give it then...", she siad "ask him (reffereing to the guy who was joking round and got the number)". I was like, more serious now, and just gave my phone to him.
He wrote my name down on my phone that was it...Jackass. I siad," last chnace", she kept on going with her shitty questions, i kept on going, but then i just said..."never mind". (it was like 10 mins later). And i walked away.
What the hell happened here?
But....
(from here onwards is what the title is really about).
As i was walking away, i heard some guy ive never met before say "Im gona smoke a jiont in my dorm or room". I asked if i could come too, he siad sure.
Some girl-friend was coming with him. He was piss drunk. Ended up in his room, he was rolling. I was talking to his friend , chilling on the same bed with her. (remember i dont even go to this school, i met those two people like 2 mins ago).
Tried the denmark elehpant thing, got some deep eye contact agian (becuase im reading the mind right). Well i fialed, she thought of dominican republic. Whatever, it was good fun. Held her hand a but while mind reading, it was all natural and all. She was really interesed in my accent.
I said a bit, didnt reveal too much. SHe was romanian. Jiont was finally rolled, they guy who rolled it, had to puke. It was just me and her in a room. She took a few puffs, hadent really kicked in yet. She had a jiont in one hand and a ashtray in the other. She managed to spill on her pussy area.
I joked "I would help you wipe it off, but I dont want to get slapped". She siad "not neccesarily". So me being me, started wiping it off, getting closer and closer. SHe didnt even stop me. I met her 5 mins ago, and im already wiping her pussy area. I didnt even know her name...talk about easy
I had a few puffs, the jiont went off, after i put it in her mouth a few time, and she put it in mine. It wasent very strong. She resited saying she dint want to burn herself the first time i put it in her mouth (gently), from then on, no problems.
Anyways it went off. I siad "theres a lighter on the desk" I didnt want to be the pussy and get it for her (jiont was in her hand).
She played dumb," i dont see it" I pionted. SHe kept on saying she didnt see it. I got closer and closer to her. I held her hand, and piont towards it. ...SHe still claimed she dint see it. (I figured this was kino escalation). I got closer and closer. put my cheek agianst hers. Holding her hand, and pionting at it. She kept playing games like , i see paper but no lighter. We were practically on each other. I started talking in her ear. After every sentence we looked into eachothers eyes. I tried following her eye movements, like zan perrion siad you should.
damn, we were so close...getting more and more intesne.
I wanted to go for the kiss. The drunk friend, was back and got the ligher for us. I thought, dammit. I moved back. I wanted to say "im trying so hard not to kiss you right now" (after we were all over eachother).
but... i dint say it.
I HAD NOTHING TO LOOSE. But after the perefct signs, I was too nervous. I knew she would accpt it. But i didnt do it.
Buzz went, more poepl came into the room, focus and tension went. She left to another room. I siad," wait " in a cool tone, and somewhat controlling. (i had to put my shoes on). But she left.
SO shitty, i cant belive i froze up.
.Was a good night, got denied and ingored alot. Great expericnce to build up i belive. Im somehwhat conditioned to apprach anxiety. My day at work today was a whole lot better, when i could speak my mind with ease.
Any help, on what went on with the first girl would be nice to know. Second girl, my fualt i shoudlve moved in when it was time, but i didnt. ANy ideas how to solve that, or is constant exposre the best idea?
Thanks for any input anyone might have.
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